Michael N

“I have been able to easefully and lovingly step into my own power, allowing my sexual energy to inform and renegotiate my own relationship to masculinity.”

I came to Jason because I wanted to explore erotic play as a way to move through some gendered trauma that I’ve allowed to linger in my life. As a queer man, I have generally been afraid of my cock, keeping its sensations and experiences locked up for private feelings. I generally had an association that sexual energy was a bad, dangerous energy, and that this energy was the reason I had been bullied, harassed, and hurt by men in my life. I fooled myself into believing that my queer body was controlled and that masculine sexual energy and queerness were antithetical.

I had been exploring the paradox and limited beliefs that emerged from this thinking, and Jason appeared at the right time and the right place for that exploration in an embodied, generous form. At the time, I had very little experience of sensual, erotic touch other than as a way to chase an orgasm. I felt called to work with Jason because I could sense his willingness to stand outside of judgement, confidently but gently hold the wheel, and guide the experience based and where my body wanted to go. There was no clear agenda, and the exploration felt clean and loving.

During the session, Jason was patient, moved slowly, and helped settle my nervous system from the start with a clear conversation about boundaries and what I’m into. I understood the practice to be in support of me understanding my yeses and nos, practicing a yes, and being able to take it back. As we began with hands-on work, Jason was utterly professional and curious, integrating coaching modalities and well-practiced tantric touch. It was scary to ask for touch, and powerful to be clear about my desires as I explored coaching from a deeply vulnerable, emotional space.

The session was profound in that I was able to use the energy that originates in my cock and balls to flow through my body, and re-story sexual energy as bad or dangerous. As I step into a world where I can experience my body’s pleasure as a source for good, I have been able to easefully and lovingly step into my own power, allowing my sexual energy to inform and renegotiate my own relationship to masculinity.