Lauryn H.

I recently had the pleasure of doing a cosmic untangling experience with Jason. This felt like a big risk for me. My blocks around my power and my sexuality have been complex and layered. I trusted Jason's guidance but was unsure how the experience would support me.  I would put the cosmic untangling experience very high on my list of transformational experiences (and I have had many). Jason is so thoughtful and conscious about creating a safe container and it was evident in all the ways I was guided that this is a genius area for them. It was so supportive to move through my challenges around sex, pleasure, and power with a trusted guide that knew where to take my awareness. Not only did I have a huge breakthrough around my power--I feel hope that my obstacles are not too large to move through and that I have the support I need to continue to grow in this area of my life. 

Michael N

“I have been able to easefully and lovingly step into my own power, allowing my sexual energy to inform and renegotiate my own relationship to masculinity.”

I came to Jason because I wanted to explore erotic play as a way to move through some gendered trauma that I’ve allowed to linger in my life. As a queer man, I have generally been afraid of my cock, keeping its sensations and experiences locked up for private feelings. I generally had an association that sexual energy was a bad, dangerous energy, and that this energy was the reason I had been bullied, harassed, and hurt by men in my life. I fooled myself into believing that my queer body was controlled and that masculine sexual energy and queerness were antithetical.

I had been exploring the paradox and limited beliefs that emerged from this thinking, and Jason appeared at the right time and the right place for that exploration in an embodied, generous form. At the time, I had very little experience of sensual, erotic touch other than as a way to chase an orgasm. I felt called to work with Jason because I could sense his willingness to stand outside of judgement, confidently but gently hold the wheel, and guide the experience based and where my body wanted to go. There was no clear agenda, and the exploration felt clean and loving.

During the session, Jason was patient, moved slowly, and helped settle my nervous system from the start with a clear conversation about boundaries and what I’m into. I understood the practice to be in support of me understanding my yeses and nos, practicing a yes, and being able to take it back. As we began with hands-on work, Jason was utterly professional and curious, integrating coaching modalities and well-practiced tantric touch. It was scary to ask for touch, and powerful to be clear about my desires as I explored coaching from a deeply vulnerable, emotional space.

The session was profound in that I was able to use the energy that originates in my cock and balls to flow through my body, and re-story sexual energy as bad or dangerous. As I step into a world where I can experience my body’s pleasure as a source for good, I have been able to easefully and lovingly step into my own power, allowing my sexual energy to inform and renegotiate my own relationship to masculinity.

Bob

As a 50+, white, male, CEO, with no bondage history whatsoever, I can tell you this experience was truly life-changing. Jason created a very safe container and knew the perfect questions at the perfect time with the ideal rope experience to allow me to truly feel into my deepest questions and access answers that I believe would be inaccessible through any other means. The results of my experience are still with me several months later and my awareness and presence has expanded to all new heights. I highly recommend this experience with Jason; especially if you are ready to push your boundaries on your way to reaching all new heights, both personally and professionally.  

Willow

“In one night, I found more movement than in years of traditional therapy and self-exploration.”

It started out exciting and fun. It was a small little toy that he could flick me with. I anticipated any pain would be well within my range to accept with pleasure. The first hit stung more than I thought it would, and still, I gleefully was excited. After a few more hits, I could feel myself approaching my threshold. I remembered my breath, remembering to accept the pain into my being like the gift it was. It was no use; it exceeded my ability to remain in composure. I started to squirm, turn away without control, my mind having to wrestle back control to expose myself to another hit, and with great effort attempting to remember my manners and express gratitude for the gift I was receiving. A few more hits, and my mind was fading, a part of me wanted to cry out yellow, but what fragment of my mind was left held on believing I could not be broken by this. Then the tears started coming to the surface, and again my mind held onto composure with every ounce of energy I had left. Then he stopped hitting my breasts. I thought I had passed the test, but no, next was my stomach. The sheer jolt of anticipated relief being ripped away from me was jarring. Still, I held it together. That is what I have been doing for years, holding it together. It was when he hit me above my clit that the ironclad grip that my mind had slipped, tears welled, and then when he told me to let go, it felt like letting go of my grip on the edge of a cliff into the abyss where time and space cease to matter and I descended into a madness that I have never felt before.

I remember the unbelievable fear that overtook me, where shadows surrounded me menacingly. At that moment, I couldn't have been smaller. I couldn't escape it. That piece of me has never been able to, living in a perpetual state of terror, silently trying to scream. In that moment, for the first time, that part was able to cry out, and in a single moment, all of her years of fear came out. It was unbearable. It was liberating. I knew I was often scared, anxious, and afraid, but this? This was beyond fear; this was being a small girl utterly terrified of being torn apart and no one coming to save her. I could hear his voice saying he was there, and my fear became more desperate. I wanted so badly to be saved, and yet he did not stop me from feeling into all the fear.

Then there was the sadness. The tears wouldn't stop. For once, the thought that I wasn't supposed to cry wasn't enough to stop me. It made me scared. I couldn't get caught crying. Yet it wouldn't stop. I'd almost gain my composure, and he would command me to let it out, and even deeper wells within would open, and poisoned water would come rushing out. Despair, loneliness, shame... it all mixed together in a concoction that felt like acid coming out. I didn't think it would ever stop. I never knew my heart ran so deep; I never knew I could cry like that.

None of that came close in comparison to the anger. I lost all sense of composure, and all the effort I put into holding my parts together fell apart. I became unhinged. All the time I spent breathing through anger erupted, and it was nothing short of rage. I wanted to hurt someone. Violence is such a forbidden and foreign temptation to me. I never knew a part of me held this. I wanted to turn around and tear into him with teeth and fists and dig my nails into him so deeply that he would forever be scarred. I have never wanted to inflict pain like that, at least not consciously. I had just a shred of consciousness to know not to follow through with the desire and sink my aggression into inanimate objects, and there wasn't enough strength or yelling to satiate this desire to destroy.

All of this was happening at once, a fluid motion between all these states, and containing all of them at once. It felt like an eternity passed, and finally, I felt calmness reentering me, or maybe just exhaustion as it didn't feel like my mind was done, but my body certainly was. I remember being taken to bed, parts of me still wanting to scream and cry and yell and hit but didn't have the capacity. I seemed to pass out for a moment, and my normal state of consciousness returned to me, but there was no way to climb up the cliff I had just fallen off.

For weeks afterward, I was reactive, emotionally expressive, and my relationships became strained. Through this, though, I discovered all the fear I had in letting go was unfounded, and there was space to be free to live into my emotions. I found my connections with others more fulfilling, and I do not carry the numbness and emptiness that used to be so prevalent in my experience.

Jason is masterful in holding space for rawness and vulnerability throughout the entire experience. I felt confident in his care the whole time. He guided me rather than directing, making his presence known without holding me back even in the times I wanted to be saved from the intensity of it all. In one night, I found more movement than in years of traditional therapy and self-exploration. It is an experience that I'm still integrating into my being, but even in this short time, I have found it transformative.

mo

“During this session, I got a piece of myself back that had been missing for a long time.”

As someone who has a hard time being in their body, working with rope was the perfect medicine. It gave me something to press up against and feel viscerally. I was working through deep patterning and binds that took place in my childhood and have continued to the present.  

Jason took such care in tying the rope and going slow, pausing to ask me questions, holding me when I cried, and pushing me deeper into the experience. The energy that I received from him was the perfect combination of challenging and gentle. 

He had me talk to my five year old self, imagine her, and what she was looking for at that time.  

It felt like the first time I was really seeing her and acknowledging her pain. I cried so much.  Jason then posed a question that I had never been asked before: “What are you afraid to face by acknowledging this pattern?” 

When he asked, he had me pick an object in the distance that reminded me of the pattern and then look away from it. When I looked back at it, he asked me to answer the question. This was a challenge for me because it was pushing me past the answers my mind wanted me to say, and into what my body truly yearned for. At that moment, I was unable to answer. He said, “Sometimes it's enough to just know that there is something we are afraid to face.” 

Later, I got my answer.

The moment I was suspended in the air was when the tears and grief stopped for a moment, and I felt pure bliss. It felt like I no longer inhabited a body and was simply an orb floating around. One of the ropes was tied to my long, thick hair with a rock attached at the end. The rock weighed my head down as a tether while my body floated. At one point, Jason lifted up the rock and said to me: “Feel all of this weight that you no longer have to carry”. It was a relief. 

Then, I was back on solid ground and the ropes started coming off slowly. Jason had my inner child imagine my older self without all of these ropes and binds tied to me. A future in which I was more free. I could see her. With each rope untied, I watched the binds fall off of this version of me. I felt the pressure of the rope leave my skin. He asked me to undo the last knot of rope. I did, and watched it drop to the ground. 

In the days following this ritual, I made a major life change. I decided to choose myself. During this session, I got a piece of myself back that had been missing for a long time. I feel like there is new life in my blood that I have never felt before. 

Heidi M

I went into the Bondage Journey session thinking of it as providing a safe space to take a problem/situation where I feel stuck and physically bound by rope, to force my brain to think outside of the box. 

I needed to limit my self-destructive thinking. Being bound by rope helped break the mental bondage surrounding my issue. I was clearly able to see how absurd the movie was playing in my brain. It was even funny at times when Jason took me to the extreme edges of what was possible around my issues but highly unlikely. 

I realize my trauma is not unique to me. I don’t know how many others are comfortable, even prefer, talking out problems nude while tied in rope, but this might be the solution you’ve been looking for. I want to emphasize that those tools combined allowed me to tap into comfort levels of healing that would not be available in traditional coaching or therapy. The rope was putting pressure against my body, which then allowed me to tap into parts of my brain to work out the problem I brought with me.  It is easier for me to be vulnerable in that situation when my body can feel how tightly I’m being held.   

At the end of the session, I felt energized, in a healthy way - like a wonderful massage or yoga class. I went home and journaled about anger, my role in my situation, and where my anger has been coming from over the past few months. 

I believe Jason is uniquely qualified for leading people through a Bondage Journey. His experience of coaching paired with D/s, bondage (kink), and his training in Tantra, allowed me to get into my mental safe space.

FT

Paradoxically, I found my Bondage Journey to be really freeing. I enjoyed how differently my brain responded versus my body. It helped me to identify different feelings and emotions manifesting in different ways in my brain, body, and heart. It definitely crystallized some patterns and self-perceptions that I may not have discovered through more traditional methods. 

Jason is a wonderful coach and guide. I felt very cared for and protected throughout the session. I highly recommend a Rope Bondage Ritual with him and look forward to my next session.

Courtney G

I’d love to share a few words about my experience with Jason in what I have been referring to as “rope therapy.”  

Jason and I met at his art studio and sat down to discuss our expectations of the session. He spent ample time with me going through some basics of rope safety, and ensuring he understood any physical limitations or concerns that I had.  

Jason has a wonderful ease about him that made me feel very comfortable during our time together. He asked many questions of me, and I knew that it was important for him that I was feeling safe and open-hearted for our session.  

During our time on the table massage table where we did our work, Jason checked in with me often. He did a great job of getting me to open up and discuss my innermost feelings. His presence with me gave me the necessary support to dig deeper into my thoughts, and allowed me to explore things that I was not expecting to feel.  

The best thing I can say is that I laughed and I cried. I came away feeling completely relaxed and cleansed of some of the emotional baggage that I was carrying. I had no idea how heavy that baggage was. To be able to talk through it while having the feeling of the ropes on me, was surprisingly liberating.  

I have done a lot of therapy over the years in a traditional setting. This new offering is something that really inspired some deep feelings in me that I have not felt in many years. I would absolutely recommend a Bondage Journey to those who are open-minded and curious to challenge themselves to new ways of feeling through emotions.